~masmaira soul garden~

Falling in love is a sweet feeling that can make us happy, feel appreciated and also needed. Suddenly we can be very generous, polite, hardworking and many other good deeds will appear in us. we have someone to talk to when we are sad or even mad, there's a shoulder for you to cry on, a hand to hold, someone that will always be there for you.. someone that wont let you go and promise to protect you.


"ku sangka panas sampai ke petang..rupanyea hujan di tengah hari..."
For a girl love is everything, they willing to do anything for their love one, just to make sure their love one happy even though their girlfriends sometime get mad..."can we just have a girl day out?" or "is there any one day we can hang out together without your boyfriend?" or even worse "your boyfriend is annoying..please get rid of him quickly.." but a soft hearted girl, they rather ignore their friends.. and tell themselves my friend just jealous because they don't have boyfriend.. They always loyal to their love one, they will avoid any new relationship with other guys who have intention in them.. they don't want to betray their bf. But why.. a guy never appreciate a girl? never accept us as what we are? accept that we are just a simple normal person, we have feelings, we will get jealous because we love you... we get mad because we care for you.. we always call because we scared we loose you.. A girl will fight to protect their love, it is every girl dream that their love one will be their one and only forever... wish to sleep in his arm all night, wake him up with a kiss... a dream to be a lovely wife and mother.. to have children with him... everyone will have the same thought.

Maybe its a normal thing to happen for a guy, they are easily fall for another girl, just because we couldn't be in front of his eyes all the time.. there is no girl in this world could accept that you did not love us anymore! Yes, you're saying that they just friend... but spend most of your time with that girl, your phone full with her sms and the most hurting thing is your phone full with her picture with you..adeih you still want us to believe she just friend? We will fight for your love and attention..but if you keep searching for new love, sooner or later we will give up..really give up upon you.. no matter how deep our love for you, we will give up when we don't have the strength anymore...



the love is still in the air, but it smoked by your temper, ignorance and disobey toward us.. how are we suppose to be strong? you are our source of energy, be with you make us strong.. its time for us to make a move.. we don't know what to say or what to do.. our heart been broken, our love been betrayed,
our trust being fooled by you..

What you expect us to do? some of us might gone mad, some may try to accept any guy to heel her wound, and some will remain silent and pray to Allah so that you will come back to us.. how many girls will remain silent? she is very strong and stupid.. to be loyal to someone who betray her.. who take an advantage towards her never ending love...yet we still leaving you.. we are gone

And one day, you might realize that your new love is not what you want.. you might think about us, you will realize that there is one moment in your life you been shower with love.. you never realize that before, once you loosing it... you will felt the emptiness you gave us..some of you might search for another new love, maybe it is easy for you to love and be love... but some, might come back to us.. your ex's, and you will shower us with the love words and confession, you'll say that, there's nobody ever love you as much as we do (before this you say we try to be your mum), nobody ever give you attention as much as we do..(before this you say that we did not trust you), nobody ever been patience with you as we do..(before this you say we are dumb).
Yes we did do all that for you.... we did it with all our heart, we never mad when you complain because at that time we are in love with you.. our eyes are blind, our lips are sealed, our ears are deaf... all we can see is just your,all we can talk about day and night is about you, all we can hear is your sweet voice, at that time we are fully covered with your loved..at that time..



You hurt us a lot.. you turn us to be mean.. we become like this because we are trying to protect ourselves..
we don't want to be hurt again.. we scared to find love.. we just wait, who will come to us and take us hand..
It's not that we did not love you anymore.. we can't delete you from our heart and memory.. we are human that have emotions.. we will always remember the moment we spent with you, the sweet2 places, the presents..
There is no way we can ever forget all that... the memories will be kept safely in a space of my mind...
the love is still there...we just cant bear to be with you anymore..
please accept this..
we still can be friend because yes i still and will always care for you.. because once in my life..you are my happiness, my one and only, my love, my sweet heart.. and once in my life.. you are my everything..thank you for all the moment you share with me..
take care.. i pray that you'll find someone better who will love you more than i do..
i'm sorry for all wrong thing that i had done.

"kasih yang pernah dicurahkan akan bertaburan tanpa arah tujuan.. tanpa penerima...tanpa tuan.. walaupun hati ini kesunyian..tak sanggup untuk terus dilukai..."

what i wrote might be right and wrong.. this is only my point of thinking.. maybe differ from others... when the time come.. when the right person come.. i really hope Allah will open my heart for him so that i will love him, accept him as him..

"aku tak mudah utk mencintai..
aku tak mudah.. mengaku ku cinta..
aku tak mudah..mengatakan aku jatuh cinta...
senandungku hanya utk cinta..
tirakan ku hanya utk engkau..
tiada dusta..sumpah ku cinta..sampai ku menutup mata..
cintaku.. sampai ku menutup mata"