~masmaira soul garden~

good evening everybody....
i now at my friend office skali in setul timur...
both my bestfriends working here..one is tnie and another one is encik hairil..
but today tnie went to perak with her boss to do an evaluation towards spikers there...
final presentation if i'm not mistaken..
now i at encik hairil partition, waiting for him to finish his job and sent me to
sg. besi...adeih..waiting is booooring

today is tnie mama's birthday....happy 58th birthday mak..we love u soo much..still could not figure out what should i gave u as a present...

erm..today i started my day very early..so that angah wont hambat me
i accompany tnie to bandar tasek selatan star lrt, then i go to KPTM KL alone
supposed to meet ustaz marzuki and settle regarding my KOMASA check but ustaz was very busy and the matter are not settle..
i go to language department hopping my beloved lecturer miss saaniah will be there...its been long time since i last saw her...its sad to hear that she lost her older sister last wednesday(al-fatihah)
wanted to call her..but maybe tomorrow...and i'm glad to hear that she adopted a girl..
at least she have friends at home and at least that will make her busy...
i'm not trying to busybody...but is it trend or what? a career women tend to adopt a child..
are we lack of guy in malaysia or there is no more good guy around?
the girl are too choosy or the guys always take advantage towards us? i'm not happy with this situation...married women did not allowed their husband to remarry..then how bout girls out there who did not meet their soul mate? i'm not promoting polygamy but what happen to me if let say i have to face the same problem... wallahualam

then i try to search for my other lecturer..luckily pn rosmawati around...so we had a long chat...so many things she share with me...i'm so happy i can meet her..she is so garang actually but at the same time so lovely..hehehe we talks nearly about everything..she show me pictures of her visiting europe..so nice of her.. then pn wan asiah joining us gossiping and chatting...not forgotten they ask about me n encik hairil..i donno where they heard that i'm and encik hairil already engage...nak mampuih ngan mak ko..hehe i just say i have no comment regarding us..

just now encik hairil show me the girl from sg buloh that he always tell me about...she soo pretty..sweet and i like her..that is my first comment since i di not even talk to her..but she have such a beautiful smile..and it look sincere not that fake creepy type..
i hope she is beautiful inside out...i try to encourage en hairil to get to know her
and flirt around a bit...but he just smile..and i don't understand the meaning of that weird smile..lantoklaa labu..hehhe

erm..i dont think he should just let go the opportunity that is right in front of his eyes. "peluang hanya datang sekali".. i believe he should grab this opportunity..haish tak makan saman this encik..

i don't know what he want from me..just know he bebal2 around with me just because i accompany suhaila to MARA..if he agreed that me and him is best friend..please act like one..
maybe he just tension with the pressure from his workplace...seriously this office is quite boring for me...empty table..only one laptop...he didn't provide a good working environment...i feel like i'm in a box..empty box which people keep wandering around..go here there anywhere...

am i stupid to come here to kl..and pujuk him? just because he had a very bad broken hearted? we should care for a friend right? do i love him? yes...but as what? friend i guess...
can we be together like before? i don't think so i want that...but as pn rosmawati from KPTM said..let it be..if he is mine we will be together forever like what it suppose to be..

i don't want to tide him to me...i want him to be happy..i want everyone be happy even though we don't have girlfriend or boyfriend...wanted everybody to appreciate people around them...love them and care for each other...like what it suppose to be..